creative juice

So, I finally hopped on the bandwagon and partook of requiem for a dream. I remember when Justin told me about it back in 2000, I wanted to see it then and just never did. Well, the other night I was at walmart and they had requiem for a dream and π bundled together for only $15 so I had to.

Well, yet again a film has proven to be an inspiration, this time the specific storyline provoked a deeper sense of inspiration in me for a storyline, rather than just a general inspiration to write something.

So a few minutes ago I messaged hunz and asked for permission to use some of his older music. His stuff has always evoked mental pictures and I can almost always imagine a basic storyline coming out of it. I believe that with the inspiration I gained watching <span style="font-weight:bold;">Requiem for a dream and from hunz's music will make a big difference.

Now you all just need to get together for my birthday and get me a RED ONE! If needed I can give you the configuration I wanted. It's a very very reasonable 44 thousand

so much for...

...everything. It amazes me how quickly things can change. Introspect turns to cynicism, self control turns to self loathing.

I must stand, despite the want to lie down and give up. But why do I want to give up?


I've found my musical taste changing lately. It is hard to describe. It's not just because Em has been introducing so much good music to me. I am sure that plays a part for sure, but I am starting to really not care what song is playing. I have my favorites and the songs I really enjoy just hearing, but I have been shuffling for a couple days now and I am currently on track 279 out of 9570 (I haven't added the 5 or 6 CDs I just ripped to my library yet)The Killing Moon by Echo & The Bunnymen off of the Donnie Darko soundtrack.

Now, a couple years ago I would have probably not really been interested in this particular track because I have always been less of a fan of the 80s music. Lately though I have found myself really into it. I suppose everything comes full circle though. One of my favorite new bands that I just discovered is the Polysics, a japanese new wave/punk group. Yeah, sounds like an interesting combination eh? I dig them and I am already going to see them live. I'm jazzed.

A sad thing, really...

So i get this voice mail today informing me that my landlord, who is already kicking me to the curb after living in this apartment for like darn near 4 years, is breaking into my place and throwing everything out!

For those not in the know, I JUST got my new place yesterday, literally. Now if you scroll down and look at the post where I announce that I am getting kicked to the curb, you will realize that it has not been 30 days since I got my notice. Furthermore, Kansas state law prohibits a landlord from entering a property without notifying the tenant first and setting up an acceptable time. Beyond this, in order to a landlord in the state of Kansas to "toss yer shit out" they have to follow proper eviction protocols.

The ONLY legal way to evict a tenant in the state of Kansas is to first, file an eviction with the court, then, after the set waiting period, you must appear in court, at which time the tenant has so many days to get their stuff out before the landlord comes back with the sheriff. It is ONLY at this point that the landlord can come in and do something with your belongings.

Fortunately I think he was merely trying to blow smoke up my skirt, because when I FINALLY got off the phone tonight at darn near 8 o'clock, and got back to the apartment, I found absolutely nothing out of place. So now, I have almost everything I own packed into my car, my tiny little sport compact coupe Tiburon...

Other than my furniture, I think I have just about everything. There are some computers over there still, servers and my macs, I did leave my paintball marker there because I just couldn't fit it in safely. Other than that, I should be able to get everything that is left in one truck load...

It feels good to have not much I think. For so long my life was burdened down by owning so much crap! I remember when we moved to PA, we had so much stuff that it barely fit int he u-haul, moving back we had so much crap that we filled a third of a semi truck, and then a minivan... AND we left stuff there!!! Now, here I am, sitting in a small car, I can still see out the back even, and this represents the majority of my non-furniture possessions.

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Doing the garden, digging the weeds
Who could ask for more?

awesome-ness!!

So apparently I have been in the dark or under a freakin rock or something.... I was totally caught unaware when Em informed me about the movie Across The Universe, which is a musical set to nothing but music from The Beatles!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111one one


Yes, that does really excite me that much. And on top of it all, it looks like the storyline is going to be a really good one to boot. I think I could be just fine with a worthless storyline, so long as there is a sh*t ton of music from The Beatles.

I also read someplace while I was searching for information about the movie, that they tried to use some of the more obscure stuff from The Beatles. This means that the entire movie is going to be a wonderful trip through music that isn't just what everyone knows! I will get to exercise my brain, calling the album and track name on these more obscure songs... I think this will be an amazingly awesome experience.

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All my little plans and schemes, lost like some forgotten dreams.

Something clicked tonight.

I think I have finally found that sweet spot for my clutch. All evening I have been shifting beautifully and it is very enjoyable.

I do however desire more power. I think that part of the problems I have with actually accelerating at a decent speed (as opposed to taking off like a rocket) is that my engine lacks enough low end torque to ease into the clutch without being really precise. There seems to be a very tight sweet spot where the clutch engages and the throttle is just enough that you take off smoothly, but it is quite a quick take off, not that I mind, I just would like to avoid a cop pulling me over for it.

At any rate, there is a guy who builds a bolt on super charger kit for the V6 Tib. If I am ever in a position financially where I can afford one,i think I am going to go for it. They are showing that the straight kit, no other mods is putting around 200 horses on the ground, and add to that Intake, Header and a decent Exhaust, and you are looking at 250 WHP. I think that would be plenty sufficient for me. Just enough power to be fast, but not so much that I end up killing myself or going to jail :)

Of course, after that I would want the CF hood, a small drop and high performance suspension, maybe some rims with wider rubber.

Of course at some point along the line I have to grab a couple 10 inch subs and and amp, as well as some decent coaxes for the rear and a nice high quality component set for the front...

ahh dreams. Maybe if I win the lotto eh?

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I never said WHY I felt bad... it wasn't for the obvious reasons... It's actually pretty convoluted.

oh hellz yes!

Nissan announced the New GT-R site today. If any Japanese car was more badass than the Nissan GT-R, then the world would probably collapse under the sheer weight of awesome-ness!

Seriously!

Now, I have my reservations about the current G35 based GT-R, since they moved away from the RB series straight six engine that was, quite simply, legendary. The new GT-R will have a turbo charged 3.8 liter V6, based on the 3.5 liter V6 in the 350Z and G35.

The VG35 has proven to be a very good engine, with a lot of potential, I just have a soft spot for the RB series and the concept of a straight 6. I am sure this will be every bit an enormously awesome car, I just have to reserve judgment until we see the pudding.

Style-wise, i have always preferred the R34 skyline over the G35. between the G35 and the 350Z, I prefer the 350, so the looks are probably the only location where I was worried. Based on the prototype however, I think they have managed to make the G35 a bit sexier and meaner looking to satisfy me.

Now, if only I had the 70k that it will street for here in the US...

So, not such a great idea as once was thought...

Just to let you know, making up for the lameness of spending a 21st birthday watching the season primer of Heroes by creating a drinking game where you drink every time someone int he show says the words "hero" (or "Hiro"), "Special", or "Destiny"....??


Not such a hot idea....



Kevin called in today with a "head cold".... Jen was just shaking her head because she KNOWS... lol