so much for...

...everything. It amazes me how quickly things can change. Introspect turns to cynicism, self control turns to self loathing.

I must stand, despite the want to lie down and give up. But why do I want to give up?


I've found my musical taste changing lately. It is hard to describe. It's not just because Em has been introducing so much good music to me. I am sure that plays a part for sure, but I am starting to really not care what song is playing. I have my favorites and the songs I really enjoy just hearing, but I have been shuffling for a couple days now and I am currently on track 279 out of 9570 (I haven't added the 5 or 6 CDs I just ripped to my library yet)The Killing Moon by Echo & The Bunnymen off of the Donnie Darko soundtrack.

Now, a couple years ago I would have probably not really been interested in this particular track because I have always been less of a fan of the 80s music. Lately though I have found myself really into it. I suppose everything comes full circle though. One of my favorite new bands that I just discovered is the Polysics, a japanese new wave/punk group. Yeah, sounds like an interesting combination eh? I dig them and I am already going to see them live. I'm jazzed.