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Saturday my grandmother died. She went peacefully doing something she loved, eating.

At this point I am okay with it. She was suffering from osteoporosis and the early stages of dementia. I can honestly say that she is in a better place, and a better way now.

I know that tomorrow I will probably break down and it will hit me. I spent a lot of my earliest years with my grandparents. My grandfather taught me how to ride a bike, bought me my first bike. Losing him earlier this year was hard because I really respected him a lot and looked up to him, unfortunately my own rears of seeing him with Alzheimer's and the other health issues he was suffering caused me to neglect going to visit him in his last days. I really regretted that and went through a lot of pain because of it.

I dealt with it though, that's what I do.

My grandmother is where I got my passion for music. My earliest memories are filled with her playing the piano or violin. Even the memories where she is not in them, running through my grandparents house. She was always playing music, beautiful music. She was quite honestly one of the most talented pianists and violinists in this city, and I am proud to say that she was my grandmother.

It broke my heart when she could no longer play the violin. That was truly her passion. I think that the violin was capable of carrying her away into another realm where nothing else in the world mattered in the slightest.

A tear wells.

I went and visited her on her birthday last week. You could tell that this really touched her. I think she knew that she wasn't long for this world and my visit touched her deeply. That helps a lot I think.

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Grandma, I will miss you. I hope you know how special you are to me, how much of my soul came from you. tell grandpa hi for me please.

An Excellent Segue...

So I think my iPod has aspirations to become a DJ...

I'm listening to The Dandy Warhols - The Dandy Warhols Love Almost Everyone and the next track is Modest Mouse - Sucker Bet and the segue was almost perfect! I mean I think they were even beat matched! I thought to myself "Gee, they went an odd direction with this song, but okay." The basic rhythm/melody of the tracks is even similar. It wasn't until I decided to see how much longer it was going when I looked and realized this was a separate track...

For joy!

Please don't go

I Call Out From Above
Am Falling From The Sky
In The Deepness Of My Soul
Love Falls From The Height
With Never Ending Self
You See Inside My Heart
But Light Is Hard To See Past
I Fail My Grand Design
Don't Think Of Me As Human
Think Of Me As Incomplete
I Long To See Within
Could I Call Inside Your Heart
Handle All Of The Hurt And Pain
Not Leaving You Behind
Trusting You With My Everything
You Are There But I Don't See It
Any Time We Are Around
More Of Me Dies And Thrives

The more you know.

The Smashing Pumpkins. I had honestly forgotten what musical geniuses they were. Unlike so much music from that time there was genuine musical talent and songwriting talent.

I am so into dark, brooding, depressed music lately. If it isn't hard pulsing electronic music beating you in the head then all I seem to be interested in is the stuff that makes grey skies welcome.

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black, dark, sinister. Strike me down and watch my blood flow. pouring onto the floor, crimson pools filled with the stench of death. Oh sweet life, I taste you once again. Strike me down and take my soul. Oh sweet darkness, embrace me.

why.. a reprise

Stuck in my head.

Time spent, it was a good deal. I don't want or need it, but desire is alive. If I had the opportunity to do so, I couldn't imagine NOT.

I don't think I could, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to try. When does it come to that point where I will finally give up?

Should I give up or should I even bother?

Please Padron the ego trip.

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this with everyone.

Can't win for losing...

So.

A friend on preludeonline.com is selling his amplifier and I pick it up at a really nice deal. It's an older model, but I really like this particular model. Another friend in RL has a 3x10 bandpass box that he has nothing to push it with, so he let's me put it in my Tib.

Tuesday I get the amp and notice that the box is pretty beat up (thanks a lot UPS) but everything looks good. I go home and spend 3 hours in the cold running the wiring back to the hatch and end up screwing up my left rear 6x9 somehow that I have yet to determine. I get everything hooked up. I completely rewire the 3 dual voice coil subs so that I am pulling a 2.67 ohm load. I know that this is going to really be hard on the amp which is only rated for 4 ohms bridged (400 watts) But since I didn't pay much for it at all, I am not worried.

I get everything wired up and hooked up and then I fire the system up and hear nothing from the subs. I open the box back up and try connecting only one voicecoil to test and it still makes no noise. After some fiddling I discover a short in the amp under the power connection. If I nudge the power block just right I can get it to power on and work, but still nothing coming out of the sub.

Last night I disconnect the signal coming form the head unit and hook my iPod directly into the amp and test again, still nothing, so I open the box yet again and begin testing the other voicecoils.....

each sub had only one working voicecoil! I rotate the center sub so that the working coil connections are all at the bottom and I wire it up parallel. This makes the load now 1.33 ohms, I stop and consider running one sub in series to bring it back to a 4 ohm load, but decide that I am not out much at all if thing's go really south... screw it!

I hook it all up and it works! I have to rig it a bit to keep the power from shorting, but success nonetheless!

I hot the road out of respect for my neighbors and get about 2 or 3 miles from home. I'm sitting at a light at Kellog and Rock, headed east. At this point I am listening to "I'm The Supervisor" by Infected Mushroom and it comes to a particularly hard portion of rapid bass beats. As my car vibrates violently I am thinking "holy crap that amp must be getting hammered!" I notice that my headlamps are dimming with the beat, which surprised me for all the power I was pulling, but I suspect at this point the amp was severely overloaded and probably making close to 800 or so watts.

The light turns green and I take off, about half way through the intersection the bass just cuts out. I'm thinking that I probably overheated the amp and it shut off under thermal protection, that or it just shook lose the nice little rig I had going to keep the power flowing.

I pull into the Walmart parking lot and open the hatch and take a look, sure enough the power had just shorted. I get it nudged just so and start to leave, but it cuts out again :(

Now I think I am going to have to de-solder the power connector block and re-solder it to fix that problem. Hopefully that will be sufficient, but I was hoping to have everything working properly before the drive to KC Sunday.

bah.. I also have to get the left rear speaker working as well, it just sounds horrible without it. The sound stage is all screwed up and skewed to the right :(